and you really think.

That everything is going to be the same again ?! YYEEEEUH right. honey, ain't no fucking WAY you can be like that and walk back in again like nothing happened. Sorry but, i'd rather see you grovel...
And P.S. Like my good ol' friends The All American Rejects say "when you see my face, i hope it gives you hell"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTQj1yEvlUY&feature=related

Recap: 'RANDOM FACT: Dracula has the ugliest voice ever. But, if anyone were to do that Dracula opera for me from "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" i'd totally tap that shit.'

Funny story my friends, after posting that comment yesterday, i find myself sitting in english class earlier today with my group members Jennifer, Elliot (moose) and Lyle. As we work on our project like the good little children we are (or not..) the subject of the movie comes up again and wouldn't you happen to know it, LYLE IS A BIG FAN ! and then quickly begins to recite his rendition of the exact same dracula song i was speaking of. Moral of Story: Careful what you wish for, you may have to end up fucking Lyle.. (after we finish the project of course)
In other news, i'm supposed to be doing my Planning right now but.. it's not loading for me.. so for the first time in my life, I HAVE A LEGIT EXCUSE ! i'm going to also try and sleep early today, it should work.. i didn't nap (fucking late baskeetball practices)
anyways.. PEACE !

RANDOM FACT: Today for some reason my legs started fucking up and i was walking home like a gimp. Not only that but some old lady was behind me and i mistakenly reacted to her as if she was a rapist.. NOT a pretty site folks.

and once again.

I FAILED. i suppose it's kind of an on-going habit for me. Me, being the smart person i am, attempted to sleep without an alarm clock.. once again showing faith in myself that i really shouldn't have. To make the story short, i slept in until 12:30. which sucks because i am unable to go into foods late, and i refuse to go to school without brushing my teeth, i'm lazy NOT unhygenic. So anyways, that's about the BILLIONTH foods class i've missed. I really can get an A in that class i swear, that is.. if i went. I was doing really good on my skipping for a while, but then once you start.. it's so hard to stop. People who've said that to me in the past and had me refuse to believe you in return, I fucking apologise. IT'S LIKE A FUCKING DRUG. Thing is.. i dont even really mind school all too much, it's the waking up and going to it that pisses me off. I am naturally nocturnal and can't really do anything about it.. like a fucking bat. sometimes i wonder if i'm adopted and my real birth parents are actually vampires.. i mean i get that alot from my brother. "Hey Christina, you fucking vampire, are you actually walking around in the day light?". I suppose i should get angry at this comment because OBVIOUSLY i don't fucking melt under the sun but, in truth i can see where he's coming from. I mean it's pretty fucking accurate. Most nights i dont sleep until somewhere in the a.m's and then when i do get to sleep i dont wake up until somewhere along the afternoon. and even at that point sometimes i don't even wanna go anywhere after that but, if i do i don't even leave my house until it's already the night. I even went one whole summer with people thinking i was allergic to the sun but, admittance of the day: I just wanted to stay home and read.. due to a phase of mine that i'd rather not admit to the public just yet. Maybe, work with me here, my life is like Twilight.. but real version. And instead of being the faggoty girl i'm that amazing i-can-do-anything-because-i'm-mythical vampire. but, of course it can't be possible.. because i can't even pull of the most mundane task such as... oh i dont know, GOING TO SCHOOL ?!?!?! i want to make a promise and say that i shall go to every single class until winter break.. but honestly? who am i kidding, that's one whole fucking month to pull off.. eff that shit. there's always next term ;) Speaking of which, why is it that whenever someone fails at something (read: me, everyday) they always try and brush it off and say "don't worry, i'lll do better next time".. I'm pretty fucking notorious for this and it's like.. no you fucking won't. This is the next time you were talking about next time you procrastinating bitch, how about you get off you're fucking ass and do something about it NOW !!!! but in truth, no ones inner voice is as mean as mine is. Seriously, for the longest time we have always learned to give ourselves second chances.. but that's fucking ridiculous.. i mean if you keep letting yourself do shit, you're gonna fail. Take it from me.. i suck harsh dick.. literally and figuratively NAW WHAT I'M SAYIINNN' ?!?!?!
but, i digress...
We always ask ourselves whether or not we should give someone else a second chance, and then some inner morals piece of shit person gives you the pros and cons and you decide from that.. it's funny though isn't it? because when it comes to giving ourselves a second chance, there's no arguement needed. we always down play are mistakes and worry about it later. but, such is life.. no more of this talk.. just makes me depressed because i literally am famous for doing everything i'm complaining about.
Anyways, /end rant. I want to go do some more shopping.. well because, like skipping: once you start, YOU DON'T WANNA STOP ! i'm going this weekend with my main man Mike. Hopefully we don't ditch eachother again.. like usual.

RANDOM FACT: Dracula has the ugliest voice ever. But, if anyone were to do that Dracula opera for me from "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" i'd totally tap that shit.
And P.S: I totally broke my bracelet that i've had on for two years today.. it's considered bad luck and my wrist feels totally naked without it.. i need something to compensate FAST !

and i'd just do anything.

Just about ANYTHING, to stall from doing my homework. All of which isn't really due until Tuesday but I want to actually be a diligent student for once in my dull life. Obviously, that's a lot harder to do than it seems. Even better, homework isn't the only thing that's on my ever so short must do list. I'm moving in about a week, and I haven't even cleaned up my room yet, let alone pack. As much as I complain about moving farther away from civilization as it is, truth really is I love moving around. My attention span rivals that of a gnat so, as much of a hassle it is.. it keeps me entertained.. in some sort of way.
On another bitter note, I am a FAILURE. As much as i vowed to do so, I couldn't. My friends, i have failed to go all of November without drinking. As of last weekend, I officially have 0% self-control. BULLSHIT ! Seventeen days left, ladies and gentlemen, and I couldn't even do that shit. I could blame my support system for not being so supportive (fucking jennifer..) but, i know in the end it's my own fault. Maturity is over-rated. But, speaking of whack shit.. can somebody please tell me when i turned back into an LG.. like a realll hurtin' LG.
see:
Okay, so as i was explaining.. so there are my sexy girlfriends looking all good and shit, and from the start this picture is normal. Now if you look at the other circle you so that stupid corona bottle in my hand... being displayed... like i'm trying to prove how "hardcore" i am. Now trust me, this was NOT done on purpose, but when i saw this picture i was so disappointed in myself.. I just saw this damn picture and flashbacked to my elementary school days where i'd drink a quarter of a beer and on my msn name i'd put "SO FUCKING WASTED, BEST NIGHT EVER !!!!!!!!!!" and to prove my point i'd choose a few select friends to talk to.. purposely typing like a retard to encourage the fact that i was 'drunk'.. but, anyways.. that's your vent/confession of the day.. sorry Michael for making you go through that LOL ! and by the way, if you can't read my chicken scratch (via: paint) it says "me = fag" which pretty much about sums everything i'm trying to say. By the way, this is the picture from the exact same week i broke my drinking vow as well.. man not only did i FAIL but i had to document it as well... brains: i have none.
And then on a sweeter note: i went shopping yesterday.. that made me pretty happy.. it just goes to show, sometimes i CAN be a girl =) fuck you bitches who don't believe, and trust me one day i will go that special month without drinking. I believe in myself.. even though everything i've done from the day i was born is telling me not too.

Random fact: I like to talk about LG's like i'm so much above them.. technically I am still one. Which really in the end means that i should go cut myself right about now.
PEACE

j hao

I love j hao so much.

Soo...

here you go j.hao.
now we can be queer... TOGETHER.