and once again.

I FAILED. i suppose it's kind of an on-going habit for me. Me, being the smart person i am, attempted to sleep without an alarm clock.. once again showing faith in myself that i really shouldn't have. To make the story short, i slept in until 12:30. which sucks because i am unable to go into foods late, and i refuse to go to school without brushing my teeth, i'm lazy NOT unhygenic. So anyways, that's about the BILLIONTH foods class i've missed. I really can get an A in that class i swear, that is.. if i went. I was doing really good on my skipping for a while, but then once you start.. it's so hard to stop. People who've said that to me in the past and had me refuse to believe you in return, I fucking apologise. IT'S LIKE A FUCKING DRUG. Thing is.. i dont even really mind school all too much, it's the waking up and going to it that pisses me off. I am naturally nocturnal and can't really do anything about it.. like a fucking bat. sometimes i wonder if i'm adopted and my real birth parents are actually vampires.. i mean i get that alot from my brother. "Hey Christina, you fucking vampire, are you actually walking around in the day light?". I suppose i should get angry at this comment because OBVIOUSLY i don't fucking melt under the sun but, in truth i can see where he's coming from. I mean it's pretty fucking accurate. Most nights i dont sleep until somewhere in the a.m's and then when i do get to sleep i dont wake up until somewhere along the afternoon. and even at that point sometimes i don't even wanna go anywhere after that but, if i do i don't even leave my house until it's already the night. I even went one whole summer with people thinking i was allergic to the sun but, admittance of the day: I just wanted to stay home and read.. due to a phase of mine that i'd rather not admit to the public just yet. Maybe, work with me here, my life is like Twilight.. but real version. And instead of being the faggoty girl i'm that amazing i-can-do-anything-because-i'm-mythical vampire. but, of course it can't be possible.. because i can't even pull of the most mundane task such as... oh i dont know, GOING TO SCHOOL ?!?!?! i want to make a promise and say that i shall go to every single class until winter break.. but honestly? who am i kidding, that's one whole fucking month to pull off.. eff that shit. there's always next term ;) Speaking of which, why is it that whenever someone fails at something (read: me, everyday) they always try and brush it off and say "don't worry, i'lll do better next time".. I'm pretty fucking notorious for this and it's like.. no you fucking won't. This is the next time you were talking about next time you procrastinating bitch, how about you get off you're fucking ass and do something about it NOW !!!! but in truth, no ones inner voice is as mean as mine is. Seriously, for the longest time we have always learned to give ourselves second chances.. but that's fucking ridiculous.. i mean if you keep letting yourself do shit, you're gonna fail. Take it from me.. i suck harsh dick.. literally and figuratively NAW WHAT I'M SAYIINNN' ?!?!?!
but, i digress...
We always ask ourselves whether or not we should give someone else a second chance, and then some inner morals piece of shit person gives you the pros and cons and you decide from that.. it's funny though isn't it? because when it comes to giving ourselves a second chance, there's no arguement needed. we always down play are mistakes and worry about it later. but, such is life.. no more of this talk.. just makes me depressed because i literally am famous for doing everything i'm complaining about.
Anyways, /end rant. I want to go do some more shopping.. well because, like skipping: once you start, YOU DON'T WANNA STOP ! i'm going this weekend with my main man Mike. Hopefully we don't ditch eachother again.. like usual.

RANDOM FACT: Dracula has the ugliest voice ever. But, if anyone were to do that Dracula opera for me from "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" i'd totally tap that shit.
And P.S: I totally broke my bracelet that i've had on for two years today.. it's considered bad luck and my wrist feels totally naked without it.. i need something to compensate FAST !