and there it goes.

after all this time, it's all gonna go down like this. I suppose it could be my fault but, truthfully i don't think it is. I'm weak, atleast i can be but, you piss me off enough and boy, you really do, i can be pretty heartless. You had me good but, here's the oddest thing: i know you'll miss me. no one could ever take you on like i could. sure, you'll simmer in the back of my mind for a bit but honey trust me, i've gone through enough assholes like you for it to not phase me.

in other news, fuck bitches. period. that's about somes up my last view vents for the last few weeks. I haven't really had anything to write about recently and honestly, i knew i wasn't gonna write in this thing alot anyways. too many thoughts, too explicit to share. so basically, fuck life.
Another thing, i've never really noticed how much i've needed my naps. fucking basketball takes away all my napping time, I JUST WANNA SLEEP SOMETIMES. even better, this wednesday i'm going to get a matress, it's gonna be so sad to think about my new bed at home while i'm running laps or something.. DEPRESSING. but, in even better news, i lost my phone... for reals this time. of course i was wasted (note: Gin is a bitch) but, this time it DIDN'T COME BACK ! =( now i'm stuck all the way in burnaby(ish) and without a phone. I dont think i'm ever going out again, everything is just going against me. phones like to malfunction (and be lost by retarded owners), familes like to move into the middle of the abyss and little girls don't get their sleep. ain't my life a doozy?!
and another thing, i'm just gonna declare myself the booze fairy because, for some reason (WHICH I'M SURE IS UNJUSTIFIED) all my friends like to come to me and ask me to get them shmammered. whcih of course i would, but goddamn, all this reliance on me is makin' me alls weary. but, to conclude, i'd hella do it. winter break is coming in 3 weeks, so i'm just gonna not skip until then and possibly not drink?! but we know i'm a failure when it comes to that so uh, don't get no hopes up. i should start a christmas list and a new years resolution thing, but thoughs never end up working for me because for ovbious reason, i suck penis. big time.
i'll do that in a couple weeks, because things i want, i want to get myself... and i'm spending most of winter break with the fams anyways.. it's what i do. i loves the famjams.

RANDOM FACT: when i was younger, i put a zevra as one of the things i wanted for christmas. kids are fucking ridiculous man, because really, i'd rather have a monkey.